We will not forget...

I looked for you among the waves,
You were not there,
I saw your reflection in the sky,
But you were not there,
Until this tear reaches the bottom,
Of where you are,
I will not forget,
Neither will the world.


~Rei Shiori

Fall apart

Will you still love me when I fall apart?

When my head’s all fragmented,

My shoes higher than my heart,

When I drop to the ground,

But it isn’t to a beat,

When I’m fainting now,

Touch the pavements,

Will you be there,

To stop me when I bleed?

I’m all fucked up inside,

So blind I can’t see,

Hold my hand for me please?

Before I walk into the traffic.

I couldn't find the words...

The awkwardness we felt,
Me sitting next to you,
I didn't know what to say,
Not anymore,
Maybe you would not find me,
Interesting,
I never knew,
What made that nervousness come over me,
Even when you were there,
But not there,
I just couldn't find the words to speak,
Up till that day,
When I said goodbye,
I couldn't tell you I loved you,
Why?
I don't know,
But goodbye came easily enough,
Along with tears as I looked at you,
Through the glass,
Goodbye,
Goodbye,
Goodbye,
Still it never seemed enough,
Because I could not find the words to tell you,
I loved you,
Until after you left,
And I was all alone in my room.

~Rei Shiori

Frozen words

I wanted to write,
But the words,
They,
Froze in my thought,
And like birds caught in winter,
Died.

~Rei Shiori

Love honestly?

To be honest,
I'm not sure what you love,
About me,
Sometimes some actions,
Border on the perverseness,
I often see more,
In a brothel,
Than the bedrooms of couples,
Society deems 'sweet',
So tell me again,
That you honestly,
Respectfully,
Love me,
While you hold my hands,
Instead of other parts,
Which I understand,
To signify lust,
More than the love,
I hoped for from a man.


~Rei Shiori

So tired

Uninterrupted I write,
No, that's wrong,
I type,
Trying not to let go,
Of emotions that struggle,
I misplace them,
Just so,
 I can sleep again tonight,
And I wonder why I do this,
I'm sure I've,
Needed therapy long before,
But my creativity,
It's running dryer,
Than my eyes,
I'm getting so tired.

~Rei Shiori

Off the radar

The intensity of that stare,
And the pleading that,
Ever grows louder,
Please don't let their names be there,
Scanning the list,
Checking more than once or twice,
Disbelief turns to fear,
And then develops into,
Hysterical cries,
What can we do now?
Where are the lost?
See terror in the eyes,
Of those who fear them,
Carelessness cost,
But wait there's a glimmer,
Then suddenly not,
Incompetence abound,
But still some things disappear,
Like the hush hush atmosphere,
Suspicion taints every news report here,
And we continue,
In the dark,
Of the plane that flew,
Till off the radar,
Disappeared its mark.

~Rei Shiori

Sleeping dead

I woke up shivering,
Your hands,
Gripped in mine,
Were cold and unfeeling,
I leaned over to catch you,
Before you leave,
Too late too late,
The veins no longer bleed,
As free,
As when the knife left that cut,
On one of your wrists,
That were entwined with me.

~Rei Shiori

So sorry!!!!!

My apologies for not posting for so long but please bear with me. Going through some very stressful times lately and hopefully will be all blown over by Tuesday (11th March). Gomenasai!!! >3<

Sometimes I love you

Sometimes I love you,
I wonder why,
I cannot seem to explain it,
In the quiet times,
When I am half asleep,
And the question comes to mind,
I cannot remember why,
But sometimes I love you.

~Rei Shiori

Things that harm

She pulled the wool over my eyes,
Crossed the knots,
Told me lies,
I believed her,
But they were a witch's charms,
I loved her,
But she only ever thought,
Of things that harm.

~Rei Shiori

Crossroads

At the crossroads,
Here again,
Of my own volition,
I wonder if,
My decisions have changed,
Since the day,
That first footprint,
Printed on the,
Ashes of memories before,
I became who I am,
Let me choose again,
This path I will take.

~Rei Shiori

Parallel lines

In the echoes of this broken friendship,
We learn where we belong,
On two sides,
Of an empty chasm,
Parallel lines that will never meet,
Is it a sad story?
Maybe maybe,
But not for me.

~Rei Shiori

Disgust

Your temperamental moods,
And childish fantasies,
That make believe world of yours,
I despise it.

~Rei Shiori

King of the sandcastle

What am I to you,
This endless loop of,
Running round,
Playing pretend,
King of the hill,
But it's so sad,
You don't realize,
Your castle's made of sand,
Does the saltwater hurt,
When they touch your wounds,
As you continue to,
Bleed yourself dry,
Of the lies,
You feed yourself,
To keep alive?

~Rei Shiori

Toxic jester

It's not as if,
I didn't know,
All,
Your little lies,
And endless escapades,
That your so proudly proclaim,
For anyone who would listen,
It's not as if,
I didn't know,
That darker side of you,
Yes,
That one you always hide,
And you,
Court jester as always,
Are a liar,
Your smiles hide poison truths.

~Rei Shiori