Letting go

I spent the hours before dawn
Composing
It's impossible to sleep anymore
My dawning hours spent
Restful by your side
Watching you sleep with a gaze
That rivaled any cheesy romance
Gone
Now I lie awake
Restless fingers moving
To the beat of a
Racing mind
But empty heart

I'm learning to let you go
Even before you leave
Fighting in a war that rages around me
Like a ghost
My weapons fall unmanned
My cries tumbling into the void
That is you
The war rages around me
And I
Am its first and only casualty
But you will not save me
Nor let me die in peace


Rachel Alexandrina N.C.L

I write your name on my hands

I write your name on my hands
And in a quiet breath
Breathe in the memories you and I left
In the wake of your silence
I contemplate
The ink barely dried yet
It’s never too late
Chin up
Face forward
I’ve never been one to run

I write your name on my hands
And I kiss my palms the way you did
That cold June night
When it was under your blanket that I hid

I write your name on my hands
Because it’s the only way I know how
My hands typed these words
Just as they have typed ‘I love you’s then and now


Rachel Alexandrina N.C.L.