If tomorrow never comes...

Somehow when we're young, we never really think about dying. Taboo subject right? Every time I mention it I get a disapproving glare or a hiss. But what happens if it's time to go and we don't have the option of saying goodbye? I don't want to be caught unprepared. I guess nobody wants to because even people who commit suicide leave letters behind sometimes.

I don't want to go without the people I love never knowing what I thought or felt about them. I don't want to leave and be forgotten. So I leave my words for them. Hopefully they'll find them and maybe they'll see.

I'm sorry if this is too morbid but thinking about life and death is nothing new to me ever since the bouts of depression I had when I was younger. Not that I'm that old now, but still.

What would you do if you knew you had one day left to live? What would you say? I don't know how many people read this but if you do read this post, leave a comment. I'd love to hear from you guys, whether or not you're one of my close friends already or a stranger somewhere on the other side of the world. I'd love to know you.

So back to the question. What would you do if today was your last? Here's my list:

1. Tell my family and friends I love them. Honestly, I would even though it sounds cliche and cheesy. They are the most important people in my life. Sorry, ex but you got left out this time. Would've said I still loved you but heck, not anymore.
2. Hug my dog. Even if he stinks to the high heavens and I hate the fact that he just loves to pee everywhere, I love you doggie boy. 
3. Write letters to all my best friends and maybe leave something behind for them. Anyone want my poetry collection? 
4. Go to the beach. It's my favourite place. If I had more time I'd go to Japan but well, this list is on a one day only basis.
5. Write poetry, letters, quotes, phrases. Write everything. I will die but I want something to live on. I want something for the people who cared about me to own and read when I'm gone and six feet under.
6. Tell the people who hurt me, lied to me, cheated on me and bullied me that I don't really give a shit about them anymore. I just hope they never do what they did to me to anyone else. Please. Or I will haunt you till you go insane.
7. Eat my favourite food. Well, seriously I come from an island where you find food 24/7, seems reasonable I remember the food right?
8. Record a video for the people I love. I'll get it to them somehow. So you'll see me, even after I'm gone. Sort of like a time capsule. Don't get too freaked out ok?
9. Go crazy.Do everything on my bucket list. Ok I don't have a bucket list YET, but I'll get to it in another post.
10. Pray. Really, really pray. Because wherever I'm going be it up, down or in between, I owe God everything, the people in my life, the sweet memories I've had, the laughter, the joy. 

That's my list. What's in yours?

P.S. I was planning to do a shoutout to the people I hold closest in my thoughts but then I got a little worried that they may have privacy issues, so I'll clean that up with them and get back to it another day. Carpe diem.

We live but a day upon this earth,
We're born, we die,
We learn to love,
Time may pass,
Memory may fail,
Forget me even,
If you will,
But in my heart you'll always be,
Even if I am but one leaf broken from your tree.
~Rei Shiori