Permission?

I thought,
I'd never feel this dirtied,
Impurity,
Hidden away in secret?
Could you ever forgive me?
I wonder,
If you've turned your face,
From the child I used to be,
I am sorry,
I love as much,
Yet still feel guilty,
My heart is turbulent,
My mind tells me,
I am but trash,
Unworthy,
Forgive me,
Forgive me,
But I love too much to stop,
I cannot let go,
And it's hard to go on,
Forgive me,
Forgive me,
My sins,
Are giving my soul a blacker tint,
I am a sinner still,
But grant me permission,
To live in your name.

~Rei Shiori