If only you knew

I am slowly melting,
Dripping,
Falling apart,
Under the pressure,
Of being me,
And this persistent buzzing,
Of voices in my head,
It never goes away,
So I snap at you,
And everyone else too,
And I talk too loud,
Because I don't want,
To hear the demons in my brain,
Tearing my sanity to pieces,
Even as I speak,
To say I'm ok,
I walk slow,
To stave off this aching,
And I sleep later,
To tire out myself from thinking,
I don't dare dream,
Because my hands,
They are always full of blood,
And I worry,
I'm slowly going crazy,
If only you knew how I worry.

~Rei Shiori