Lost in White Noise

White noise,
That's all I hear,
Blocks out everything,
Dulls my fear,
How do you sleep at night?
I keep my eyes open,
Clutch the pillow,
A little too tight,
Somehow these voices in my head,
To them,
Self-derision is all the rage,
I tell them to stop,
But they don't seem to see,
What they whisper,
Is hurting me,
The moon is gone,
The stars are lost,
I see nothing but the white walls,
Memory whitewashed,
I bring them back,
A split second,
At what cost?
My sanity,
Elusive on nights like this,
Gone again,
Lost.

~Rei Shiori