Loneliness

I have you right?
So why do these feelings win?
Every day they crawl beneath my skin,
Why does loneliness,
Still come crashing in?

I feel so forgotten, this wasn't what I thought it'd be like.

~Rei Shiori

Just tired

Just tired of trying so hard. What's the point when I'm never good enough for someone or another? Just want to be left alone.
Tired of being this supposed obedient daughter which I'm not and will not be.
Tired of listening all the time instead of being heard.
Tired of not being able to grow at my own pace, do things the way I want.

Just.

Tired.

Even my writing is shit now.

Strangers again

In the end,
It all came to this,
My sweetest love,
Turned to bitterest,
All that sharpened teeth,
Hitting,
Biting,
Bitten,
Why do we always cry,
When something's gone?
Why ask me why?
You know what you did wrong,
Started with the blame game,
Now here we are,
Back to square one,
Less than that,
Strangers again,
Try to tell me how I should feel,
But I'm no longer delirious,
No longer insane,
You were an angel,
But a devil is what you became.

~Rei Shiori