Thursday, 31 October 2013

Full circle

So it's come full circle,
The line is drawn back,
From beginning to end,
We meet,
We part,
Then meet again,
I would not give,
What you wanted to have,
This heart,
My own,
No man's land,
The past,
The future,
None represent,
What I have become,
And how much more of a person,
I now am,
I am not that child that clung to your hand,
I am not that girl who cried as you ran,
I am not the broken one,
I am not a piece of property,
I am appreciated, cherished and loved,
By someone better than him,
Who will never be a man.

~Rei Shiori

Well, happy birthday to my blog! It's now one year old and I am so proud of it even though it's not the prettiest or the best around or has millions of followers. I'm still happy I stuck with writing a bit each day and that this compilation has grown so much. Happy Halloween as well everyone!

Wednesday, 30 October 2013

Past tragedies

How long do we keep running,
Until the flames burn down,
And the ashes settle down,
Into the dust,
That form the intricate patterns of our lives,
And the pasts we hold,
So wrought with tragedies,
That they cry at night,
To be retold,
So we tear open again,
The wounds they made,
Lay our breast bare,
For all to see,
And stare,
Like an animal on parade,
Like the sad fate of a caged bear.

~Rei Shiori

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

Tyrant bully

It's about time,
Someone took a hit at you,
Your constant selfishness,
And arrogance,
Bordering on being a tyrant,
You're just a bully,
And I hope karma hits you hard,
Hopefully in the neck,
That you may never,
Be able to get up,
And be a nuisance to society again,
You utter waste of oxygen.

~Rei Shiori

This is for a housemate of mine, who happens to be the most selfish, disgusting, arrogant, ball-less piece of human alive. Keep on bullying girls and mistreating that girlfriend of yours. Continue stealing the internet line and other people's food and throwing things that don't belong to you. Continue lying and covering your own ass while making trouble everywhere else. Continue being the asshat you are. Someone will be less kind than I and then you'll pay for it.

Monday, 28 October 2013

Erase him

In my dreams he doesn't exist,
Not anymore,
Not that first kiss,
Send me back in time,
If you can,
I'll erase him from my memories,
As easily as dust swept away,
In the desert land.

~Rei Shiori

Sunday, 27 October 2013

Your wandering mind

Close your eyes,
I promised to be there,
All night through,
Till sunrise,
I'll be the one,
To keep the stars bright,
In your wandering mind tonight.

~Rei Shiori

Saturday, 26 October 2013

Can you not understand

Why can you not understand,
That your pain,
Is as much mine,
As it is yours,
Every ache,
That clouds your eyes,
Makes me bleed a little inside,
Because I have no power,
To destroy all that hurts you,
And my only way to deal with it,
Is to hold you,
While you go through the night.

~Rei Shiori

Friday, 25 October 2013

A compilation of writer's fears

I'm writing you a letter today,
To tell you,
I can no longer live this way,
I can't write love songs anymore,
Where my muse sat,
Is merely empty now,
Hollow at the core,
The blooming blush of love I felt,
And passion stirring,
Deeper than my feeble human breast,
The inspiration I used to feel,
That almost made my heart,
Burst through my chest,
It left with the hot winds,
That blew at night,
And used to fill my,
Feverish mind,
With endless dreams,
Of terror at the glaring beauty of the light,
But gave me comfort,
In the quieter embrace of night,
I've searched for days now,
The nights grow ever colder,
My pen sits unused,
My paper speckled with dust and tears,
For that which one was,
My well of creativity,
Has become a broken star,
A compilation of,
A writer's fears.

~Rei Shiori

Thursday, 24 October 2013

Shell of you

Her bluish lips,
Against mine pressed,
Vapour clouds,
Not the warmth of her breath,
I stare within,
Hollowed eyes,
Inside I'm screaming,
This is a shell,
Not you.

~Rei Shiori

Wednesday, 23 October 2013


They said the light at the end,
Would be my beginning,
But as I left that secure darkness,
I began to doubt,
I heard any angels singing,
Nothing to herald,
My entry to this vast room,
My beginning only sealed my doom,
Stinging slaps,
I couldn't believe,
They'd do this to me,
Screaming and shouting,
My ears almost bled out,
Lights glared in my eyes,
I was pushed and prodded about,
Uncomfortable cold,
Seeped through my bones,
So weary,
So weary,
Why was I not told?
I heard them say up there,
I would be born to a loving household,
So why am I lying here,
Gradually getting colder than cold?
The itchy blankets around me chafe,
As tears drip down,
Stinging skin that has barely felt anything,
But is now going back beyond life,
And further to death,
Blurry shapes,
I barely can discern,
Someone calls a name,
Mine, I presume,
The air grows tighter,
My chest burns,
I gasp for air,
Every breath,
It hurts,
The crying continues,
Soft yet desperately wild,
She rocks me in her arms,
Tells me she loves me,
Her only child,
I understand,
But it's time to go,
Born to suffer,
But for a minute,
Then gone,
They whisper to her,
As I fade out,
And my vision turns into snow.

~Rei Shiori

Tuesday, 22 October 2013


I went to war with you,
We stood together,
Side by side,
Just us two,
And the world that raged,
Painted my days,
Bloody red that took away,
All the pretty hues,
You painted,
In my memory,
They tarnished the image of you,
We were at war,
Just us two,
Then you left me to die,
Without a backward glance,
How could you,
Lie about loving true.

~Rei Shiori

Monday, 21 October 2013

Treacherous waters

I watch the images flash by,
Our days,
Which were once,
All I lived for,
How was I to know,
They were just,
Drowning me in endless lies,
As I lay helplessly,
Sinking deeper below,
The treacherous waters,
Of your embrace.

~Rei Shiori

Sunday, 20 October 2013


Bone deep weary,
I creep,
And try,
To enter into sleep.

~Rei Shiori

Sorry, awfully tired=brain not working. :(

Saturday, 19 October 2013

Look how far I've made it :)

Aching feet,
Sleepy smiles,
It's been a good time,
Despite the trials,
It took,
To get to today,
I look to you,
And you smile back,
It took a while,
But now,
I doubt I lack,
What I failed to find,
In myself,
And the ones,
Who used to love me,
Hold my hand a little tighter,
And let your hands tell me,
You love me.

~Rei Shiori

P.S. I've been having a very productive time in terms of shopping today. 10 hours of non-stop shopping, which of course, resulted in my legs protesting like mad even as I tuck them under the blankets. Got myself a couple of bracelets, 2 pairs of earrings (Feathers! Peonies! squeeeeee!!!!!), 2 adorable fat maneki neko keychains, a coin pouch+key holder with a kawaii charm a really flowy tank top and a super chic black pleather mini backpack. And and and, a really funny message tee for my dad ^3^

Friday, 18 October 2013

Glass wells

Daggers everywhere you turn,
Learn to dodge,
Or fall and burn,
Living lies,
Behind masks,
Can't tell,
The truth behind,
Everyone's eyes,
Like glass wells.

~Rei Shiori

Thursday, 17 October 2013


I writhe in dreams,
You cannot see,
And cry for things,
You don't know,
How can you understand,
When I wake,
With tears on my lashes?

~Rei Shiori

Wednesday, 16 October 2013

That last kiss

Wherever she turns,
She's haunted by his face,
That last look,
She knew,
Never meant anything,
Just an empty space,
Where she used to miss,
Was that last kiss.

~Rei Shiori

Tuesday, 15 October 2013

The scarred clown

Running round,
You were always the clown,
Smiles painted on your face,
I never saw you frown,
You were the one who always laughed,
Even if we thought you were silly,
Amounting to nothing,
But the reality just wasn't that,
You always tried to be the sunshine,
Never mind if you were sad,
But one day,
I saw behind your mask,
And realized the enormity,
Of the scars you had.

~Rei Shiori

Sunday, 13 October 2013


That's what it seems like,
When my mind runs,
Through the dark,
Behind closed lids,
I remember,
Your lips.

~Rei Shiori

The other day... XD

The other day,
I was reading the news,
And I thought about you,
And how you'd always,
At almost everything you do,
And out of curiosity,
I typed your name again,
In my Facebook,
You look a lot uglier now,
Than when I was with you.

~Rei Shiori

Saturday, 12 October 2013

Can't let go

Inside your soul it's raining,
And she's staring at you again,
With eyes like night,
What do you do,
When it comes to the time,
You want to let go,
But she says,
"You're mine."
Feels like forever,
But the things she says,
Just slip through your mind,
Water over glass,
She's losing you fast,
Doesn't know how to let go,
Can't stop the avalanche,
Which used to be just snow.

~Rei Shiori

Friday, 11 October 2013

Sing me your lullaby

Sing me your lullaby,
As you kiss me good night,
One because you love me,
And one more for me to sleep tight,
Tell me you'll be there,
When dawn replaces the night,
Stay with me,
Stay with me,
Don't let my dreams drift away,
Into darkness tonight.

~Rei Shiori

Thursday, 10 October 2013

I would be me

You always told me,
Not to do this,
To do that,
And when I asked why,
The answer was always,
I told you so,
How dare you talk back?
And resentment always grew,
Just a little bit each time,
But I still feel it,
Every time,
You order me,
To do something,
You do not,
And I swore to myself,
I would never ask anyone,
To do something,
If I could not do it myself first,
Because I would not be you,
I would be me.

~Rei Shiori

Wednesday, 9 October 2013

Me too

When the lights go out,
You're still the one,
I'm wanting,
Cuddles on the bed,
Mussed hair,
Wrinkles in the sheets,
They mean nothing,
Whisper in your ear,
I love you,
I really do,
And you turn around,
To me and say,
Me too.

~Rei Shiori

Tuesday, 8 October 2013


She wonders when,
She became so bitter,
Both as a friend,
And lover,
When did it all crumble to dust,
The illusions,
And fairytales,
They gave her,
She thought they would last,
So very broken,
Too young to feel so old,
She refuses to believe,
In anything but the past,
And the experiences,
With which,
All the misfortunes,
She foretold.

~Rei Shiori

Monday, 7 October 2013

The rat race

We wear other people's clothes,
Pretend to be each others' kin,
Brother from another mother,
Sisters even though we,
Can't even begin,
To understand our thoughts,
Nothing beneath the surface,
Yet always, always,
Getting under each others' skin,
Letting random strangers in,
Swimming in the news and trends,
Nothing seems to remain evergreen,
The nights are brighter than they used to be,
Daylight clearer than it was made to seem,
And we're all running the rat race,
But nobody will ever win.

~Rei Shiori

Sunday, 6 October 2013


Every little twist of fate,
That led me here to you,
All those bittersweet days,
I spent,
Reminiscing and then,
Breaking down in tears,
In what could have been,
I'm glad they never existed,
Or else,
We would not be here,
I would be still trapped in 'then'.

~Rei Shiori

Saturday, 5 October 2013

Ghost of me

If all it took,
Was to be with you,
I wouldn't mind dying,
Just to be able,
To haunt you all my life,
And watch you as you sleep,
I would be the only one,
Who loved you,
Even as I observed,
Your darkest needs,
Because I love you,
I have loved you,
And I'll continue so,
Even as my body sleeps.

~Rei Shiori

Friday, 4 October 2013

I cannot lose you

I prayed you would never leave,
Not when I needed you,
Not when you were the only one,
Who managed to help me,
Over my grief,
Discarded those superstitions,
And mindless beliefs,
I cannot bear to lose you,
To something as trivial as this.

~Rei Shiori

Thursday, 3 October 2013

When we were more than friends

I'm not sure,
If things are back,
To the way they used to be,
Or you and me,
Can we ever return to,
That time when,
It was a fairytale,
Or has time,
Covered it with a mourning veil,
And we cannot pass again,
Not into those times,
When we were more than friends.

~Rei Shiori

Wednesday, 2 October 2013

Than ever before

Some days were better,
Some days,
Were badder,
Curled up in a corner,
Crying the tears dry,
Just to pass time by,
Waking up just to put a mask on,
Pretending to smile,
Although the reasons were gone,
And every day,
The walls grew a little higher,
And the distance grew further,
Than ever before.

~Rei Shiori

Tuesday, 1 October 2013


The anger you suppress,
May end up overflowing,
Yet bigger,
A mess.

~Rei Shiori