Guilt-filled sea

What if we were really never meant to be,
Selfish hearts drawing closer,
Forcing our destinies,
When the reality was,
It could never be you and me,
Trapped in a consciousness that is my own,
It won't let me be,
It won't leave me alone,
Biting and gnawing,
Like a dog at a flea,
It won't give up,
Won't let go of me,
As I struggle to breathe,
Beat back the cresting waves of doubt,
That have set free,
An avalanche of thoughts,
That threaten to drown me,
In this guilt-filled sea.

~Rei Shiori