Nothing

I am never enough,
Always a disappointment,
The bottom of the league,
Never got enough grit,
Not tough enough,
Not enough wits to receive your love,
Will you prove me right?
That you love me,
As the world does,
Only for what I have,
To offer,
And not because I am,
What you made me,
Were you expecting the child,
Who so many years ago,
Only knew smiles?
I am cynical,
So much more different,
From the innocence I was,
So much more devious,
Than the light I was,
I am tired,
I cannot pretend to be what I am not,
What you want,
I am trying,
To hold it together,
As if you never said,
I was a liar,
A good for nothing,
Stupid me,
I forgot,
I was worthless,
If I could produce nothing.

~Rei Shiori